|November 1st, 2013 - Cochlear Implant|
I have been deaf for two years. I lost my hearing suddenly as the result of a massive infection following years of sporadic ear infections. I never got my hearing back and after using hearing aids for a short time they became useless.
Nobody plans to go deaf but things happen. I accepted my deafness and decided to be positive. I did whatever I could to learn about my deafness and welcomed new ways to communicate. When I lost my job and had to consider the prospects of new employment with a severe hearing loss while my hearing aids became less and less usable, I decided it was time for cochlear implant. I wanted to hear my family’s voices, listen to music, and be more employable. I am friends with many deaf people and they live happy lives without cochlear implants. I have to say that its available but not for everyone. Getting a cochlear implant is a big step and a personal one. Even though I have a cochlear implant now, I am still deaf. I can switch off my device anytime I want and have the world go silent or turn it on and listen to everything.
It is DAY 4 after surgery and as you can tell I am feeling better. But here are my thoughts:
1. “It feels weird having metal in my head.”
2. “This tinnitus is driving me crazy.”
3. “Nobody told me about drainage.” BTW, I don’t like fluids.
4. “I thought it would hurt more”
5. “I am so tired. I feel like sleeping all day.” I am glad I didn’t plan school or other activities during this recovery time.
6. “I am so ugly.” Yes, I am vain. I didn’t expect my head to be shaved quite so extensively so that my 8-10 stitches are highly visible. I want my body back together like before. My daughter thinks I look like the characters in the movie Coraline who’ve had new eyes stitched on with thread.
I think she was being kind in calling me a stitched-up person. I feel more like a:
As you can see I am in good spirits. I am glad to have my mom here from Arizona to help out while my wife goes to work and takes care of the kids. I go back to see the doctor on November 15th to have these stitches removed. The exciting day will be November 22nd at 3pm (EST).